Yeah...[ He doesn't want to go into it but...he blows out a breath. ] He wasn't who I thought it was. I don't know if that means I didn't know the person who was my best friend for four years or if he was actually from an alternate universe and not my Teddy at all. [ But he's willing to give Teddy another chance. For now. ]
[ He gives Peter a slight smile. ] Yeah, im not. It's just...strange. Like every part of me is just saying to be with him because I missed him but when I stop and think about it it terrifies me. He used to be the easiest choice I ever made.
Sorry, that's probably really lame to say. [ Billy is not used to actually spilling his guts but he can't seem to not want to talk about this. Probably because he was so confused. ]
( peter grimaces apologetically, because even without the details, he can tell. it was hard and painful. it made billy question something- someone who was so important to him. and he can't help but be angry at wonderland for it- angry at the teddy who was here before. )
No. It's not lame at all. It's sweet and real, and that's- It's how it should be. But you don't want to rush into anything if it also terrifies you, and why wouldn't it after what happened before?
( it makes sense. billy has every right to be scared. )
If this Teddy is like the one you knew from your own world, the easiest choice you ever made one? He'll understand. He'll be patient. Love's patient. ( that's what his aunt's always said. love's patient. )
[ It's good sound advice and not for the first time he finds himself silently thanking something for the fact that Peter is his friend. ] I know. And he said he would wait, and we could take things slow- I think he also needs the time.
I'm just worried I'm making the wrong decision again, and it's all going to go to hell again and I don't think I can- I don't think I can handle it if history repeats itself. [ Because that would probably break him. ]
You go in slow like you're saying. You set out boundaries. You make sure you feel comfortable, okay? Then history won't repeat itself. ( It can't, because Billy will feel the differences. He'll be able to trust in himself again, in his own hear to know the difference.
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[ He gives Peter a slight smile. ] Yeah, im not. It's just...strange. Like every part of me is just saying to be with him because I missed him but when I stop and think about it it terrifies me. He used to be the easiest choice I ever made.
Sorry, that's probably really lame to say. [ Billy is not used to actually spilling his guts but he can't seem to not want to talk about this. Probably because he was so confused. ]
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No. It's not lame at all. It's sweet and real, and that's- It's how it should be. But you don't want to rush into anything if it also terrifies you, and why wouldn't it after what happened before?
( it makes sense. billy has every right to be scared. )
If this Teddy is like the one you knew from your own world, the easiest choice you ever made one? He'll understand. He'll be patient. Love's patient. ( that's what his aunt's always said. love's patient. )
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I'm just worried I'm making the wrong decision again, and it's all going to go to hell again and I don't think I can- I don't think I can handle it if history repeats itself. [ Because that would probably break him. ]
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You go in slow like you're saying. You set out boundaries. You make sure you feel comfortable, okay? Then history won't repeat itself. ( It can't, because Billy will feel the differences. He'll be able to trust in himself again, in his own hear to know the difference.
He wants that for his friend. )
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[ He shifts the subject, just slightly because too many emotions. ]
I'll have to introduce you two, he's a bit of a fan. [ He shoot Peter an amused smirk. ]