If that's what I really meant, I would have just said it.
[He does want to talk about it-- but everything that Billy's just put on him is a lot, and this doesn't seem like the best time for either of them. He sighs, frustrated, and he shakes his head before he looks back to Billy properly.]
I don't like putting my problems on you. I never have. But-- I'll make you a deal.
That's what I'm was supposed to be for! You're supposed to lean on me like you let me lean on you. How am I supposed to help if I don't even know something is wrong- [ he stops himself and takes a breath. This is probably not the time to get into that argument. ]
A date? [ That catches him off guard because...well he doesn't remember the last time they had a date. Before Mother? Before that even? They had been a mess for so long. He sees that now. It's amazing what time and space will do. ]
Well, it wouldn't really be starting over. Not completely.
[Because whatever else may have happened, whatever else may have complicated things, those feelings are definitely still there. For as much as Teddy has weighing on his mind, he still wants to be with Billy. Being away for three weeks had been torture, although he'd thought it was necessary. For Billy to have been without him for two years? He could only imagine.
He smiles faintly, hoping it comes off as encouraging.]
Your last experiences with me here... they weren't great. And I've loved all the time we've spent together at home, but-- we've been living together since my mom died.
[Not to mention they'd had close friends die on them, as well.]
I can't remember the last time we went on a real date, can you? Maybe we've forgotten how. But I think it would be good for us.
I think we forgot what it mean to be Billy and Teddy in the first place. [ things had gotten so complicated at home. They lost sight what why they loved each other so much.
He unwrapped his arms from around his legs and reached out, closing his hand over Teddy's which was still gripping the edge of the roof. ]
[He's startled by the display, considering all that's been said, but he softens a moment later, his hand relaxing before he turns it palm-side up and laces their fingers together.]
I think we might have. But I still love you, too. Even when I went away, that didn't stop.
[He'd wanted to call him every single day. Hell, twice he'd almost bought a bus ticket and turned back.]
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[He does want to talk about it-- but everything that Billy's just put on him is a lot, and this doesn't seem like the best time for either of them. He sighs, frustrated, and he shakes his head before he looks back to Billy properly.]
I don't like putting my problems on you. I never have. But-- I'll make you a deal.
[He sucks in a sharp breath of air.]
How about a date? And we can talk about it then.
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A date? [ That catches him off guard because...well he doesn't remember the last time they had a date. Before Mother? Before that even? They had been a mess for so long. He sees that now. It's amazing what time and space will do. ]
Like. Starting over, date?
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[Because whatever else may have happened, whatever else may have complicated things, those feelings are definitely still there. For as much as Teddy has weighing on his mind, he still wants to be with Billy. Being away for three weeks had been torture, although he'd thought it was necessary. For Billy to have been without him for two years? He could only imagine.
He smiles faintly, hoping it comes off as encouraging.]
Your last experiences with me here... they weren't great. And I've loved all the time we've spent together at home, but-- we've been living together since my mom died.
[Not to mention they'd had close friends die on them, as well.]
I can't remember the last time we went on a real date, can you? Maybe we've forgotten how. But I think it would be good for us.
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He unwrapped his arms from around his legs and reached out, closing his hand over Teddy's which was still gripping the edge of the roof. ]
I still love you, nothing has changed that.
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I think we might have. But I still love you, too. Even when I went away, that didn't stop.
[He'd wanted to call him every single day. Hell, twice he'd almost bought a bus ticket and turned back.]
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He gives him a small hopeful smile. ]
So, date?
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Yeah. I'll come pick you up at your room and everything. Dinner and a movie, maybe?
[Or is that a little too cliche'd? Although, the two of them tended to have superior taste when it came to movies.]
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Except you don't know where my room is. [ he says it's teasingly. ]
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[Seems reasonable, right? He grins back, teasing as well.]
But since I already denied you the chance to give me a fake phone number, I figured I'd give you one more shot to get out of it if you wanted.
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[ He squeezes Teddy's hand. ]
So when should I be ready?
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[He smiles a bit sheepishly, rubbing at the back of his neck with his free hand. He's not really up on whatever calendar Wonderland uses.]
Tomorrow night? Is that too soon?
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[ Time and calendars are so weird here. ]
As long as it's not too soon for you. I know this place is an adjustment.
[ He doesn't want to make that harder. ]
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Tomorrow night, then. I can't think of any better way to try and adjust.