she can't imagine having what it would take to do that to the person you love. of course, elena would've attempted to stop billy in what ways she could. she'd have never given up, right up until the event reached its conclusion. but kill him? knowing it wasn't really billy? knowing that wonderland was influencing him, and a mansion death is a mansion death?
she swallows, hard. )
Maybe he wasn't, though. I'd believe that.
( the words are difficult to say, but there's understanding behind them. stefan in wonderland hasn't felt like her stefan, not once. so often he feels unfamiliar her. he pushed her away for so long that she doesn't know how to bridge the distance anymore, or if she even wants to. and only a year ago, she couldn't have imagined feeling that way. ) Look at us. All of us. We come from so many worlds. I've met more than one version of Bonnie. Peter would call it Schrödinger's cat theorem.
[ They've spoken about Stefan a few times, she knows what it feels like to not know someone you usually know better than anyone else. It makes sense, so much sense but...] what if it was him though? He was so much like my teddy when he first got here and then I have no idea what happened to him. Any Teddy though- who proclaimed to love me as much as he did. [ He swallows back tears. ] How do you hurt someone you love like that?
( elena reaches to cover his hand with her own. tears threaten to well up her eyes, but she holds them at bay. she wants to have an answer for him, but she doesn't think there is one. ) Do you think it's possible he was influenced by Wonderland too, in some way?
( even if it wasn't by the event itself... wonderland can change people. maybe that's what's terrifying. someone who was once so familiar to you, someone that you once knew like the back of your hand, can become a stranger tomorrow. and that's not always wonderland's fault. that's life. )
I don't know. [ He's definitely in the realm of possibilities though. ] I've never seen it change anyone not during events, being here changed him but...that was more because he refused to handle anything that happened here.
[ He sighs and brings his hand up to his forehead, squeezing the bridge of his nose. ] Not that any of this matters, he's not here anymore. I miss him, but I'm glad he's not stuck here. [ It's taken him over a year to finally be in a place where he can miss his boyfriend again. Billy has flourished in Wonderland, becoming someone he was actually proud of being, Teddy hadn't. Wonderland had stunted him. ]
( elena places a hand behind billy, letting it run up and down his back in a soothing circle. even with everything that happened to her recently, at least she can say it wasn't a Real. it wasn't someone she loved. )
It still matters. Even if he's not here. And it can always be both.
( billy can miss him, without necessarily wanting teddy to be stuck here, too. )
( elena manages a small laugh, choked though it may be. she shakes her head by way of reassurance. ) No, we're comforting each other. And it helps to talk to someone who's been there, even if I wish you'd never had to experience any of it.
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she can't imagine having what it would take to do that to the person you love. of course, elena would've attempted to stop billy in what ways she could. she'd have never given up, right up until the event reached its conclusion. but kill him? knowing it wasn't really billy? knowing that wonderland was influencing him, and a mansion death is a mansion death?
she swallows, hard. )
Maybe he wasn't, though. I'd believe that.
( the words are difficult to say, but there's understanding behind them. stefan in wonderland hasn't felt like her stefan, not once. so often he feels unfamiliar her. he pushed her away for so long that she doesn't know how to bridge the distance anymore, or if she even wants to. and only a year ago, she couldn't have imagined feeling that way. ) Look at us. All of us. We come from so many worlds. I've met more than one version of Bonnie. Peter would call it Schrödinger's cat theorem.
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( even if it wasn't by the event itself... wonderland can change people. maybe that's what's terrifying. someone who was once so familiar to you, someone that you once knew like the back of your hand, can become a stranger tomorrow. and that's not always wonderland's fault. that's life. )
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[ He sighs and brings his hand up to his forehead, squeezing the bridge of his nose. ] Not that any of this matters, he's not here anymore. I miss him, but I'm glad he's not stuck here. [ It's taken him over a year to finally be in a place where he can miss his boyfriend again. Billy has flourished in Wonderland, becoming someone he was actually proud of being, Teddy hadn't. Wonderland had stunted him. ]
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It still matters. Even if he's not here. And it can always be both.
( billy can miss him, without necessarily wanting teddy to be stuck here, too. )
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